Someone used to called me "a tree" before. 

Coz I don't move, say nothing, and often do nothing.


 

The one thing I do the best is just stand here. 

I can be here with you when you want to take a rest, 

but I can't go with you when you're ready to move on. 


Though, I thought I've changed after all these years. 



And they now thought me a playgirl. 



Mybe they are right, to a certain degree. 

There are those man who come in and out of my life. 

Intentionally or not, I allow them to, or even seduce them to. 



But, that's all I can do.



When you leave, I still stand here and watch you go. 

Jealousy much like fire burns a hole in me, 

darken my soul, but you won't hear the scream. 


And there shall be no tears.




 

I guess I'm still a tree after all.


Or ~butterfly.








孤寂是有抗藥性的，


不管你用的是高級麻醉劑或便宜的酒精，


下場就是像滾雪球一樣，


用藥量要越來越多才有效，


直到你的身體和神經系統崩潰為止。






其實，人們心中的孤寂感，是頭腦的產物，

是意識平台裡的一個頑強的古老程式，

它不是完全對人有害，

但是當人的大腦太發達，太過敏感，

也就是想太多，加上人際疏離，

這個程式就會失控地成為「孤寂殺手」病毒程式，

每天失控地折磨你，

讓你生不如死。